...I just submitted my entry for the CR OC contest.
I'm entry # A32.
To be honest... I'm scared.
...TERRIFIED actually.
It's my first attempt at a character... About a million things are running through my head right now. What if it's not good enough? What if it IS good enough? What if...? What if...?
...I had to redo alot of the typed bits, because I lost it from the transition to my other laptop... and same goes for the fanart. I was so rushed... I was only able to submit one picture.
Sometimes I hate this computer. It's what... a pentium 2... at most. Barely any RAM and a 20G HD. It takes me 4x as long to do something on here. Heck, I can't even run MSN or PS2 without it almost freezing. Anyways, that's the reason my OC entry is lax... and why It's taking me so fucking long to do anything on here.
*big sigh*
I MISS MY LAPTOP...
AN pictures will be up soon, along with a convention report. Perhaps some videos of my epic cosplay chess "Objection!" along with photos like this: [link]
By the way, I'm not a photography student anymore. Looks like I spent 2 years getting no farther ahead than I was to begin with. Except I could've had a job during that time, and now when I need one most... I can't.
I want nothing to do with photography anymore. I've packed it all in a box. Put it away. I may even sell my equipment, but how can I possibly get as much cash from when I first bought them? I don't know. I really don't know.
The chemistry isn't there... Perhaps it never really was.
...Its just one big joke, isn't it?
Devious Comments
Also, I'm really sorry about the photography thing.
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The creatures around here all suck. We need to make 'em cooler.
I'm Zim in the deviantART Cartoon Obsessions Crew!
And don't sweat it! You're going to do just fine in the contest <3 I believe in you!
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We prefer the term "Undead Americans", thank you.
Superman with his forehead hair, Sanji with his eyebrow, Princess Leia with her cinnamon buns, and Buzz Lightyear with his chin.
ERGO, one curly haired Mark Mycroft created by one very gifted Lorissa is one of the best characters in the world. If the CR peeps realize that... then it's up to you and ONLY you what you do with that.
Just like with it is with photography. You were really good at it, and it wasn't a joke. It was a portion of your life that you spent growing and learning more about yourself. We can come out of life hurt, yes, but always with something more than when we went in.
You haven't let anyone down. Don't feel like it was a waste of time. It wasn't. You yourself once said that everything we do, victories and SUPPOSED failures, contribute to the person that we are now. The person you are now is very good. And it's because of what you've experienced that it is so.
You've got an artist's heart, Lor. You can be too critical of yourself sometimes. Don't be.
Your life is up to you. And it makes you. Personally, I think that's good.
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esse quam videri
I'm saddened by your sudden rupture from what I feel was a genuine passion in you. Pack the stuff away if you want, but I suggest you don't sell or discard it yet. If it was one specific event or trial which changed your made you change stance on photography, then give yourself more time to reconsider. Walk on another path only if you've made your mind twice on the matter.
Whatever the outcome, I'm sure you'll manage to get back on your feet, Lorissa!
I probably will never understand this fall you had from something you were trying to achieve. I can't see how something you put so much heart and dedication into could slip from your fingers. I'm unable to see the entire picture; it's a huge flaw for someone who wants to be a friend you can lean on.
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You have support when you need it, even if I do most of the talking, from me. It sounds self-centered, but I'll be there to listen if you need to talk about it ever.
Just... Y'know... don't say such sad things. It makes us sad when you're sad...
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And here I am digging a big cheesy hole for myself in your journal entry.
*withdraws shovel*
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On a brighter note, I saw "Up" today.
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"Yesterday I sent my neighbor a banana in the mail. Today I opened my mailbox to find a coconut. Touche."
I wont criticize you for giving up photography, however I will miss your photos. But if you think that giving it up is for the best. If by giving up you are doing what is going to make you happy. Make you successful. Than I dont mind. But if giving it up brings you down. If you feel lost or lonely than I wont be able to just sit by and idly watch you give up. Maybe it's the smart thing to give up, but that dosent mean it's the right thing.
So if not photography, what is your dream?
That's all I ask. truely.
Ps. Enjoying DoC, If not I advidse playing it. It's very good for miserable people like you and me along with hobos, pedos and whatnots. Luv u DJ, keep safe and pull through to the end.
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Something about the hobo Vampire
and the Rich ass President
makes me smile...
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